we sat where you slept and i felt the walls cave in you told me you loved me and i gave in you said if i didn’t feel the same you’d get up and i’d never see you again and i don’t want you to go but i still dont know but i don’t want you to leave so i’ll sleep here i’ll stay here i’ll hold you and you’ll hang on and i’ll be here i’ll be here and i’ll love you until

we’re sitting in the back of your house looking up to the sky now this scenery has me thinking is this how i want to die? i’m feeling like i shouldn’t be here but who am i to decline? ‘cus i’ve got nothing left to lose and you’ve got nothing on the line we sat on chairs that were about to break two of them right there on the grass and then my mind left my body entirely and all i saw was time moving too fast i couldn’t feel anything there besides you just your warm hands placing themselves on mine i could’ve sworn that your body were freezing at least when compared to mine and at that moment i felt a new warmth i couldn’t tell you if it was too hot but i am tired of being cold and now i’d rather be here than not and i know that you’re no better than me i’ve seen your breath going through the air that’s why i needed all that time to wonder if we could even make it all the way there and by there i mean the place that i’ve been meaning to take someone and it’s a place you’ve never seen at all what if i’ve forgotten the way i’m not really sure what to say my minds leaving me behind again and i think i’m running out of ways to try to convince you that we’re okay so what if we’re not there’s not much i can do and we might be making a mistake but i now i can’t imagine this without you you think in now or never so for me there’s really no time to wait and if all my urges were right then i guess it’s already too late

there’s that play ground that’s close to your house a 3 minute walk we’d never talk and we’d stand on the sand and then drop to our knees scream at the sky to somebody that we didn’t believe in we’d get up and go on the swings they almost broke those broken things lay back on the ground i’ll start looking around get trapped by your stare and it makes me feel as if i’ve been found i look into your eyes i start to see the face of how you looked before it was too late we’re the only heat we’ll get in this place when it’s all dark, and there’s nothing around, and all we have is us i swear we’re on fire when you tell me about all the times you tried to die, i swear you’re on fire when i tell you i’m weak and i won’t survive, i swear i’m on fire if we end up dead and our bodies are found still holding on to each other, we’ll be on fire

im on the way back to my house after me and you watched a movie that i dont even remember the name of and on my way back there i stopped and breathed in the air how long has it been since i could do that? i wish you could be here with me when there's no heat here because you'd know exactly what to do i look for you when you're not around but i know i'll see you when i close my eyes everything is alright and as long as i have you i'll be just fine you're scared of the outside i would be too if i had ever had to go through all the doors you have but im here to love you and im here to protect you sometimes it hurts but its worth to see you smile and i'll try my best to be exactly what you have been missing all this time you've spent alone the world out there hates us i mean, look what it did to us but at least now we dont have to be in this place alone i'll be that fire i'll be that flame i'll put myself on the line i'll make everything okay and if you ever need me when im not around i'll be there when you close your eyes everything will be alright and as long as you have me you'll be just fine i'll hold you for as long as you need me to i'll try to paint the world in your favorite colors and i'll cry too if it helps and in doubt you know that i'll be here i'll be here i'll be here i'll be here (i'll be waiting for you down that street) i'll be here (with tears running down my eyes) i'll be here (everything will be alright) i'll be here (just let me hold you tight) i'll always be here (just let me hold you) so when we close our eyes everything will be alright and we'll be alive we'll be just fine

and to that i say i’m human i’m made of me and parts of you and then there’s moments where i ache times where i worry for you things you say and comparisons you make different things you threaten to do you cry in my arms and tell me you’re a mess i tell you you’re not and you just look away making promises i don’t know i can keep i just want to see you be okay when you smile everything seems to be how it should but is that only when i’m around hearing stories of all those times that could’ve been the reason i never would of met you don’t tell me it’s me don’t tell me that i’m why you get to breathe i feel your warmth i feel the sun but what if i’m not enough hold you like i’ve never had arms before crashing down to earth and bleeding out on the floor and it was something that i wish i could’ve ignored but every single day you just bled more and more i’ve seen your wings come out and i have cried at the sight trying to stop you from taking flight i’ve held you down to earth be it a couple of times even if i was the one that showed you the sky harsh waves crashing on our bodies your skin peels off and i start to bleed and in the great picture we are nobody but in our worlds it’s just you and me and my arms are starting to numb and break and now i’m seeing cracks all upon your face i said i’d always be there and thats still true but now i’m running out of ways i can save you at the playground, where we’ll sit look at the sky, and your eclipse look at my hands then i’ll think about an end i’ll love you like i’ll never see you again i’ll never see you again (x however much i say it)

back to those walls how they stare and the room itself is in flames and you have a different face not by much but expressions have changed and new thoughts from places i never want to know like that night i had the knife and said things you wished i would and i got out of there with tears running down my face i went through the door but you seemed to stay and i couldn’t watch the ending of it all i don’t open my eyes unless i have to and i’ve done it all i was the heat i promised but i’m just not warm enough and the people i once never wanted to listen to began speaking in tongues i understood and you are the idea of everything i swore myself to and i didn’t want i never wanted to realize when the burn marks made there way to my skin i didn’t want to look so i looked at you while we fell apart the ground we are becoming the lights are flashing the doors are closing and heat is fading here we are where i never wanted to be and this place is no longer just a bad dream when i finally woke up i saw that you were still asleep and when i went to go back your eyes opened to me you had asked where i had been whether or not i went where i wasn’t supposed to go this isn’t the first time i’d went there when i said where i was i saw your blackened eyes tear up i wanted to run away i wanted to hold you i cant leave you like this i cant just go i cant just leave i cant just walk away abrupt changes in sounds dialogue and many others scenes that don’t play out how they should what is this? about maybe how long ago? i would have no issue i’d embrace the noise and the scenery the lights wouldn’t be flashing maybe they would i wouldn’t see them since then flames have grown scars have been had words have been said difference in mind and state of mind places have disappeared and sparks that flew are now on the ground engulfed in it all everything is look back at what’s not there we started the fire now look at us